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Honoring the Melancholy.
Did you know that skilled painters never use pure black — straight from the tube?
Instead, they harness the alchemy of a mix of prussian blue, paynes grey — and a smear of crimson
because this way, black acquires depth, sings and seems alive?
Pure black pigment is dense — dead — made as it is from the crushed bones of the long buried.
Soulages and Lee Miller knew the power of the black screech mark.
Chinese watercolour is a symphony of meditative greys -
Black is the colour of my true loves hair
and also the basis of Malevitchs square…
Black envelopes, crushes and pulls you in -
The night sky — deep shaddow — holes…
So, I will paint over my colours today.
There is something I need to do — urgent — that requires this negation of the past.
But I will mix my black — not use it “right”.
That way, I can always come back to the light.